I was kinda bothered by the scene I was watching earlier in the train (MRT) on my way home. There was a guy of my age (or younger) sitting on the opposite side in front of me. He was on his earphones listening from his phone. Since I was right infront of him, I get to notice that the man sitting beside him is whispering to his ear. I don't really look at people when I ride the train but these two is getting so much of my attention. How I wish I just entered the next door of the train. Then I notice that the man, which is a gayman, is trying to wrap his arm on the guy's arm but the guy refuses and gets his arm away from the gayman. Then I see the gayman whispering something. 'He' was even removing the guy's earphone so that 'he' could be heard. I didn't get to hear what the gayman's saying since I got my earphones on too but it was obvious that 'he's' trying to control the guy. I can see the guy's face and it was sad. Then I see a lot of whispering made by the gayman to the guy and the guy was just staring blankly on the floor. The gayman's face was annoying I swear.

Seriously, I felt pity for the guy. The gayman acts as if 'he' owns the guy and that 'he' can do whatever 'he' likes, whenever and wherever. Flirty gays should vanish! I have nothing against gays but an act like this in public is unacceptable. Then I started to wonder that I told myself 'There are many people in the train and I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only one who sees the two, but am I the only one who cares? I mean don't they give a damn on that? Or they're just quiet inside like what I'm doing."

It was sad, seeing the guy's face. He is not happy. I just pity him that he engaged on a situation like that. If it was for money, there are a lot of ways to earn money. He has a choice, and it's just sad that he made the wrong choice.We all know that a lot of this happens around but seeing one is worse. How I wish we were all born fortunate. :(

To all people on the same situation with that guy, all the best!

'Stay hungry, stay foolish' this suddenly popped in my mind. Now I find myself watching Steve Jobs' Commencement Speech for the second time. It's been more than a year when I got to watch it. It feels good to hear it again. Goosebumps. Steve Jobs, you'll always be remembered.

2 movies I've watched recently..

'DEAR JOHN'

One of the best romantic films I've seen. It was very heartfelt. I actually cried on the scene where John is reading his letter for his dad who is then sick and dying. :'( But the most awesome of all the scenes was this conversation between John and Savannah. As far as I can recall it goes like..

John: Why didn't you call? Why didn't you call on me? I mean if I not deserved anything more explanation than a letter?

Savannah: Just hearing your voice, I would have changed my mind.

Seriously, those words uttered by Savannah meant everything. John must be really flattered. lol

'WHAT'S YOUR NUMBER?'

The film was good and very entertaining! Well it's about sex, but you can get more than that, the feeling when he/she is the right one for you. That true love precedes sex all the time. And that Love is about being yourself.

"You are perfect, but maybe not perfect for me. I'm not perfect for you." you know the usual, shit happens?

If only..

Having that feeling of frustration because you failed to accomplish something important when you should have done it, only, if you were given a minute longer is giving me so much regret. It's like losing a basketball game because your buzzer beater shot was cut short in the air.

Yeah. This is one of the few moments that I realize the value of a single minute. Thinking that I should have been able to take my exam, if only..

...the elevator in the condo where I live reached my floor a minute earlier

...there were no people walking in front of me on my way to school (seriously, there are so many people walking really slow on the streets, like they're on a procession)

...the train I arrived earlier on the station where I wait

...the jeepney driver didn't bother to wait on sidewalks for more passengers when there were actually none who's gonna ride.

My day was completely fucked up! Examiners should be considerate enough in such condition. I know it's an SOP on every examination but the hell! I would not bother ask for leakage on the exam's questions to the person who just left the examination room.

I'm not blaming anyone, neither I blame myself for that. Blaming myself will only make me insane and preoccupied. Maybe it's just fate (it's silly I know). And I'm putting the blame to it.

iexeyemes

There's no reason to give up. Only reasons to improve and grow. These are just little challenges, and I'm at my best when challenged.

I'll marry the girl who's gonna tell this to me:

"When there's no way to run, when you're hurting inside, when you can't carry on, just know there's a place you can hide, don't you be so afraid of the things she might say, I will stay by your side, baby if you leave let it go. You're gonna find you way home."

I can't move on.. I never will. I don't see mysellf with any girl other than you.

You may find it funny that I'm holding on this silly caption she wrote.

But I really can't help it. Pathetic.

A friend told me this and it hit me.

I don't know but I'm willing to wait forever... I'm not losing hope.

Awesome hit!

San Jose Earthquakes rookie goalkeeper David Bingham booted the ball from the edge of his own box in the third minute of play during a friendly against West Brom and the result was something even he didn't expect. West Brom keeper Boaz Myhill, who was facing the setting sun, clearly didn't expect it either as he was left flat-footed while the ball took a big bounce in front of him, went right over his head and into the back of the net.

San Jose eventually won 2-1 and after the match, Bingham admitted that he wasn't trying to score at all (via the AP):

"I didn't even see it go in," Bingham said. "I hit it and I knew I overhit it, so I just turned around and walked back. And then everyone started yelling… . Sometimes it's good to be lucky."

And sometimes it's even better to not know your own leg strength.

Source: (Yahoo! Sports) http://sports.yahoo.com/soccer/blog/dirty-tackle/post/San-Jose-keeper-scores-on-West-Brom-from-his-own?urn=sow-wp3276

I couldn't agree more with this song!

In each tear, there's a lesson

Makes you wiser than before

Makes you stronger than you know

In each tear, brings you closer to your dreams

No mistake, no heartbreak

Can take away what you're meant to be

On/Off STUDYING for EXAMS

I was surprised to see this on fb.

I and Jett (her lil bro)

Photo taken summer 2010

Sometimes, the people-we-least-expect, touch our hearts. Somehow, this made me smile. I hope to see Jett again.

I've seen it. So I guess this is goodbye.. :(

Bitterness will soon eat me..

Overhearing my friends' conversation in class, I heard one said "Kung gusto nyo ang isa't-isa, bakit magliligawan pa". In english, If you both like each other, then there's no room for courtship. Makes sense, right?!

We have to take risks.. because sometimes, the risks worth-taking are those, which we failed to take. You'll get to know each other in time.. putting a limitation in it is just stupid.

This sucks..

I didn't know that MRT closes at 10pm. Isn't it too early for operation shutdown?! The good side, I learned that I can take the bus instead, when going home from Trinoma to Makati

But this ROCKS!

I liked this movie so much! Though others didn't. Or maybe just because this is the first Transformers movie installment that I've watched. But the first and second installment were already on my 'movies-to-watch list'.

And another reason, why I liked/why you should watch this movie, is her.. Rosie Huntington Whiteley

She's more than Megan Fox.

Gone are the days when I was truly happy..

I didn't expect that leaving teenage would be that tragic. I was caught off guard..

A friend told me to just be happy for her but how could I be happy if I know that she would be happier with me. Because those sweet lies, where the ones I'm holding onto. Keeping a good grip on it.

That guy just took advantage of the situation. I will never accept a defeat in a battle where I wasn't even given the chance to fight.

After all...

"Cause it's not over till it's over, every ending's a new beginning, one more chance to get it right, one more chance to get it wrong. It's not over till it's over, sometime's nowhere leads to somewhere and it all starts again in the end."

I'm still fucking hurting..

It hurts to think that I was left oblivious of what had happened. That you gave in for that very short span of time.

God knows how much I wanted to move on, but every time I close my eyes I see the image of you and me, happy. I can't just let go of things that give me a clear grasp of you. The only way I see so somehow I can feel that we are still connected.

"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?"

"Happiness is a journey, not a destination; happiness is to be found along the way not at the end of the road, for then the journey is over and it's too late. The time for happiness is today not tomorrow."

Despite the failures, I'm choosing to be happy. It's not easy but I will try. For the greatest love I can give, I'm giving myself a chance.

Happy birthday to Me!

06-15-2011.

Today, it came to my knowing that something I’ve been wishing not to happen did happen. Now, my supposed-to-be-special day was ruined. Well, it was already busted last night and after knowing that, it was completely fucked up!

All this time, I’ve been hoping.. waiting for the right time to act . But I figured out that I was just day-dreaming. And while I was dreaming, she’s having that right time with someone else. It hurts. More painful that being left behind. It feels like wounding a scar that hasn’t been healed before.

My mind is really fucked up. I even think that all those words were just sweet lies, lies that kept me hoping. Bullshit!

Don’t I have the right to be happy? Even on my birthday. I admit, I’m the sole responsible for what happens. But why do I always fail on this? To think, I’m not stupid. And I guess I’m not like an ugly looking stick guy. In fact, I was perfect according to her. Oops I forgot, those were just lies.

On a lighter note, I thank my friends for spending few hours with me during my birthday. My family, who are always there to love me. I just hope that this will pass..

I have no grudge on her. I just love her so much. I’m just currently not on my proper state of mind but I'm still completely sane.

SAD TRUTH :

Today should be special, and the happiest day of the year for me, but I feel completely opposite.

What's the drawback of postponed quizzes? It's feeling anxious for the second time whether you'll pass or not, which you might have known earlier. And delaying it doesn't make any difference since you don't exert any additional effort..

I'm starting to feel this school year's pressure. In fact, I got sick on the 2nd day of classes and I've just recovered. Right now, I wish for good health and a fruitful 2011.

Few more days, I'll be leaving my teenage. Two decades of existence and it keeps getting better..

MD

"All our dreams can become realized if we have the courage to pursue them in spite of our fears."

This is it! I think I'm going to pursue Medicine.

It's nice to sit down for a while and reflect of the past. Reminisce all memories that you had, be it good or bad. Last night was just emotional for me. I was back-reading text messages of all conversations we've had and it felt good, but sudden sadness kick in and tears just fell. One thing I know, I miss her so much and I can't do anything but blame myself for what happened.

It was that time when I again realized what I've learned from the past. Things happen in random but with a purpose. God let things happen the way we don't want it to be so we can change to be the best person we can.

MAC ART HUR by Bob Ong

I've just read this book few hours ago and I was surprised that this made me cry. Well, I'm not a crybaby. I think I just felt the story.

I've known this book for a long time cos my friends were reading it way back in highschool. But it was only now that I found the interest to read it. And I'm grateful that I was able to do so.

True friendship and family matters. In the story, the 4 boys may have nothing but they know 'that' great importance of friendship. They can always count on each other, whatever problem one has. They know how to empathize and love each other.

How I wish there are no unfortunate people in the world and there is no such word as 'poor', and that all youth are sent to school for education. The boys in the story have made mistakes but they are very much willing to change for the best, if given the chance. It was just sad to know that because of poverty and lack of proper guidance, most youth were mislead and directed to the wrong path. And the saddest truth, some were pushed to death. :'(

I hope movie producers or directors would make this story a movie for all to watch cos this book is a must-read, especially to the teens and young adults.

I got the chance to talk to her again in twitter even for a short time. When I told her that I miss talking to her, she replied with a smile ':)' And that meant so much for me and made me happy. You can say I'm shallow but that's the truth.

Two movies I've watched recently.. Must see!

SUPERB AWESOMENESS

LIGHT AND FUNNY

Jason Derulo - The Sky's the Limit

Just can't keep myself from singing this.. lol

A teaser video of what I posted below.

Maalaala Mo Kaya - "Tsinelas"

I'm watching Maalaala Mo Kaya (MMK) on ABS-CBN now. It's an episode of two brothers, young guy and a kid, who walked from Manila all the way to Samar. It's a very inspiring story of brotherly love that makes me envious. Through their hardwork and faith, they were able to reach Samar which is really far from Manila. I really wish I have a brother. I know I'm lucky to have my two sisters with me but I guess having a brother, whether younger or older than me, is different, a lot. Too bad, I didn't have one :|

PS. This is an episode in loving memory of 'AJ Perez'. Young actor who died at 18 in an car accident last Palm Sunday.

Last night, my favorite Korean drama ended. :( For those who haven't watch it. You must!

I'm texting her but she's not replying. So does that mean she doesn't care at all? :( I don't know what to do. Feeling down and neglected. I'm clueless about her like we've never been together as friends before. But one thing I'm sure, I love her and I'm not gonna stop. This isn't the right time I guess. :|

This movie is definitely going into my list of favorite movies! Some realizations after watching the film:
1. At some point in our lives, we all have to let go, no matter how hard it is.
2. I wish I have an older brother, or even a brother at least. I think, it will be very much fun and enjoy to spend time with your brother, like that kind of a relationship of Charlie and Sam.
3. "Trust your heart if the seas catch fire, live by love though the stars walk backward." - E.E. Cummings I guess people should live with this quotation in mind. Because there is no harm in TAKING CHANCES and BELIEVING IN OURSELVES because more than anyone else, we know ourselves better.

'Rio 3D' I watched this yesterday. The movie was very nice, I enjoyed it. A perfect mix of love,drama,fun,action in an animation, perfect for all ages. :) The storyline was cute. One thing I got from the movie, differences can actually settle into something nice and deep, like love. Plus, love at first sight is true. Well in the movie cos I don't really believe about it in reality.

I'm so bored now. FML! I want to do something fun, I want to kill time! :|

Awesome job!

This work is definitely not easy. Seriously, I'm going to need an oxygen tank up there. I actually felt like I'm the tower climber while watching this video.. You guys rock! lol

Very cute!