I'm missing a lot of my life's important events here in my blog. I will try to have time writing posts about it once I'm workfree. Med school is something really hard. :/ I can't even find myself, I've got a lot to study on and I haven't started. Wish me luck!

Pissed bigtime! Ugh!
You don't tell me things that's obviously not true. Plus your annoying loud voice. Argh!

And so my first year in Medicine already started..

During the first days of this post-graduate school, professors/doctors would ask opinions of why we entered med school. I think I have the dumbest plain and simple reason of all. I was forced to do so. Probably not forced because I was given the option to pursue it or not. And it was just ridiculous that I somehow based my decision on a few signs I asked God. I won't tell what those signs were, but He gave it to me. I would be the most hard-headed man if I didtn't pursue it. And maybe it's the encouragement from the people around me that took part a lot to my decision in pursuing Medicine. They always say that I can do it and that I am smart enough to be a doctor and all that. Not to brag, but yeah I somehow believe them but what is lacking in me is the drive and determination to reach my goals. I have always been a happy-go-lucky guy when it comes to stuff like this one. And that I somehow see myself as the jack-of-all-trades, that I will always succeed in my chosen field regardless of how much capable I am or not. Maybe it's a Gemini thing! 

Aside from the cliche that I wanted to help the people and treat them using my own capabilities, there's just one thing, I chose to become a doctor for the reason that I don't want to be powerless when the time comes that my loved ones get into age. Of course, people get old and that's inevitable. I wanted to have some sort of assurance that somebody (a doctor), who has to be, will take good care of them when they get old. And you can't keep me from thinking on how things go in this world. There is that 'added respect' to doctors, and one way or another, that respect would be of benefit to your family. That's how life goes here. 

At the moment, I don't know if I would be able to surpass my first year in Med. The volume that we have to study for a day equals that for a major exam in pre-med course. But I have no choice but to surpass and reach this goal. I wouldn't want all those investments that my family have been putting in me to go nothing. All I have to do is believe, have faith and do my part. 

I just wanted to quote this statement from a new classmate of mine. I think she said it pretty well.

"The massive volume we have to study is overwhelming and somehow discouraging... Nonetheless, I feel that these difficulties should be faced with a sense of gratitude for the opportunity to become a doctor one day. :)" - Monique Malvar

You always get me with those little things you do whenever I'm losing hope on you..